Things the way they are right now.....

Hey... I'm just sitting on campus killing time and needed something to do.

I can't believe school is almost over. I'm really starting to freak out!! I keep thinking about how I didn't really plan for anything after school and I don't know what to do with myself. I keep thinking that next semester wont be any different and I'll just have to take the time to get back to school and start classes up again but I'm not registered for any classes. I keep having these little panic attacks thinking I've forgotten to do something and I wont be prepared for when classes start again. It's really weird. I don't know what I'm going to do with all of my free time... I think I'm going to do a lot of "journaling"/organizing. I have a couple of scrapbook projects I want to get done and I'm excited to work on them but I have a lot of peices to purchase so I can get started again and I don't know if I have the money to do it. I need LOTS of paper and a certian kind at that and I don't know if I'll be able to find it.

I think I'm going to have a nervous break down and try to sanitize the whole house... That's something I can work on. I've been a closet freak about that the last couple of weeks and I just can't get enough of deep cleaning... It's been really weird. It's completely beyond wanting everything in its place and to not have clutter. I'm jumping out of my skin thinking about germs and how I need to DEEP CLEAN every room in the house. I hope it goes away once I get key rooms done like the bathroom and stuff but I don't know... I was trying to clean the office the other week and was throwing away as much clutter as I could manager and it was hard because I couldn't just empty my storage tubs... I had to wash ALL of them... not just normal where you rinse them down and wipe them clean I had to wash them all in the dishwasher AND use soap!!!! We'll see... This could be a good thing because I can get it all done over the next few weeks before Christmas and the New Year. It will be a good start to 2008. I just hope it doesn't become an obsession and the only way I spend my time.... I don't know if I can handle anymore OCD tendancies.

I don't know what I want to do about work... I know I'm not set on staying in my job after the baby comes but I'm getting restless with what I do. I'm tired of being slow and not really getting things done on a daily basis but I don't want to change to something else because I know I only really have 3 months of work time left. Our main office posted a positiong for a HR position and I think I want to get more information on it. The only things is if I were to appy and get it I would have to take about a $2 pay cut PLUS and hour cut and I don't know if that's beneficial for us in our current situation. We'll see. I might stop by today and see if they can offer more because I'll have a degree in that type of work. Maybe that will be motivation to try something new. I just don't feel challenged anymore and it's really making me restless. I don't know what's going to happen when I spend every day at home with the baby... I'll have to schedule A TON of projects to work on over the next year or two!!!!!

I hope I didn't ramble on to much but it was good to get a lot of that out on paper. Life is good right now. Financially we're dieing but I think we're blessed because even though we're having problems I know everythings going to be ok. I don't know know how, when, or where things are going to settle out but it will work out. I'm grateful I've got an amazing husband and a loving family that can give me peace of mind and that everyday I can rely on those around me to help me make it no matter how stressful each and everyday is. The next week or two will be trying but it will be ok. Please help me pray that the semester will end well and that I will pass all of my classes. Thanks for letting my ramble!!!!

Love you all!!!

So I finally did it... we're ON!!!!

So it's only taken me a million months but I'm on!!! Sorry... I don't know how well I'm going to be at keeping this updated but I'm going to try my hardest. It's going to be hard because I’m TERRIBLE at journaling. But I’m hoping that by doing this we can all keep in contact a little more and as things seem to get a little more exciting I’ll be able to update everyone as things come up not only when word gets around.

AND… if I’m lucky I can talk Paul into helping me!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Cheris (and Paul)